Saturday, December 30, 2006

Also marvel at my talents....

Chris in his velour:

On which we sprayed a stencil I made of him wearing his velour:

It's a negative-image stencil, which is why it looks somewhat weird with the baby-blue being the shadows and all.

There's a reason why I hate making decisions...

because no matter what decision I make, it's the wrong one. I don't know if it's possible for me to ever be satisfied. I figured this out this morning, when I woke up entirely too early. I figured out other random things too. I'm totally done with feelings I think. Ha. Instead I shall spend all day watching porn.

Also....Bas isn't dead! Yay!

Oh....and I'm super jealous of people that are having fun this weekend....which is pretty much everyone I know. I hate you all! Ha.

Friday, December 29, 2006

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Wednesday, December 27, 2006

Drunken Wii

Last night at Alex's



From my Drunk Wii Playing Album

Godamn, godamn....

I've been listening to Black Cab over and over again for the past hour or so. Something about this song articulates so much of the way I feel about 80% of the time. Jens Lekman feels like my weird alter-ego sometimes.....like who I am without my hardass, bullshit shell...who would believe that?

Black Cab[mp3 link]

Also, I've been rocking this song a bit....it's the second best Christmas song ever in my opinion....that Jens writes some nice music for special occasions.

Run Away With Me[mp3 link]

Pocket Full of Money is still his best song ever though.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

That's my girl- the drunkest at the party. She lost her shoe and found the rum bacardi.

Haha.....man every time I get drunk that song gets stuck in my head....wonder why, eh? I drank entirely too much spirited eggnog yesterday....I remember pretty much everything up until walking in the door when we got home...after that I apparently started time-travelling. It's really rather unfortunate. Go look at pictures of my Christmas:

From my "Xmas Super Happy Fun Time" Album
Today I'm trying to not freak out and cry and live in a blanket cave. I think I might take a nap though. I'm pretty much over this whole "apparently drinking depletes your serotonin and the day after you will feel like a sad emo fuck"....alcohol is no e, so I'm feeling just a bit gypped. I did get an awesome Christmas sweater from Chris' grandma, so maybe I'll put that on and take some holiday pictures....or maybe not. It's a mystery!

Sunday, December 24, 2006

I almost shit my pants from laughing so hard....

seriously....this may be one of the best pictures ever...and it's even funnier the morning after.Now you shall marvel at the absolutely tasteful and attractive Christmas decor you can win at Wawa........
Also....marvel at my belt buckle, bitches!

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Saturday, December 23, 2006

Also...

it just occurred to me that today marks two months since I've been gone.

Also...I was telling Raeven the other day that I pretty much look like a lesbian hobo these days. Haha. I never bother getting dressed most days. I don't know if I've ever felt uglier..haha. It's ridiculous.

Christmas reminds me I have nothing....

Man I wish I had the Vandals Christmas album with me. Alas, it's at home. Where, if I was, I'd be listening to it. And then going to the Vandals Christmas show tonight. And possibly listening to my Projekt album of Gothic Christmas Carols. Instead I'm far, far away, stuck in someone else's life for the moment.

I always thought I didn't really have much of a life in SD, and truth is I didn't. But I did have a few things that were pretty much "mine" (or "ours" really, because they all involved other people, traditions and whatnot). Christmas was always "wake up early, open presents, call everyone else and meet-up somewhere, usually our house or Garrett's house and drink all day and make merry and mischief." Yeah....why do I always want the things I truly can't have? Ha. I pretty much know that even if I was home this year, that's not really the way things would go down. Damn this fucking year. It's really been one of the worst in my life.

I guess I've just gotta make it through 2 and a half more days and all this shit will be done with. It's fucking torturous though. Every time I even think about doing Christmas-y shit I start tearing up. The title of my post is unfortunately a reality for me right now. Don't get me wrong, it's not all bad. Some of it is just fucking painful.

Charles is going to SF for New Year's. Color me uber jealous. I have no idea what I'm doing. I'm sure it won't be nearly as cool though. Damn you people on the west coast, being "fun" and "interesting".....And never watching tv. Ha.

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Friday, December 22, 2006

Who died and made you suck?

Yay! I just got a package from my mommy with presents and a few things from home, like random dvds. And my xmas stocking! and money! hahaha....

also the title of this post has nothing to do with it, the song is just stuck in my head.

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Thursday, December 21, 2006

Random laptop findings (Part Deux)

Valerie and me:Byron and Becky:
Garrett and Kimmy:
Byron and pizza:

More random laptop findings.... (Part 1)

Pics from my old phone that I sent to myself to save.

Valerie:Kimmy:
Amber:
Garrett:
Edward 40-hands party:

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It's still not done because I keep losing my light. It gets dark so early here. And overhead lights just do not cut it.

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Wednesday, December 20, 2006

My heart is an apple....




I'm re-painting a piece I did back home. It's a weird kind of induced deja vu. I was going through a lot when I did it the first time. It was very symbolic. None of it really applies anymore, in a weird way, but I think it means something else this time.

Or maybe I just missed it.

Join the car crash set....

Why am I awake? My head feels like hurting. Ha.

I find fun things on my laptop, random shit I've forgotten about. Right now I'm listening to "Warm Leatherette" by The Normal, which is just awesome as hell. Car crash fetishes, hooray! (p.s. I don't know if I can count the reasons or ways that I love Mute Records)

Along the same lines, I totally found a copy of "The Story of the Eye" on here. Let's hear it for 1920's transgressional fiction disguised as straight-up, freaky-ass smut! Oh Bataille, you silly piss-crazed bastard.

For the squeamish and non-pervy, here's a video Alex made of my cat playing pool! That was at the house we lived in with Garrett on Pine Heights a few years ago. I miss that place.

I've got more for later I do believe.....

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

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Monday, December 18, 2006

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Sunday, December 17, 2006

I stenciled a shirt today....

Front:

Back:

The back turned out kinda fucked up cause the stencil kind of popped up while I was spraying it but overall I like it. It's meant to look messy and irregular anyway....thus all the overspray...it was intentional.

I got anti-social drunk last night...it's been a long time since I've done that. If I would have been at home or someone's house that I'm used to I would have wondered off and hidden in a room...haha. Then people would randomly wonder where I was and have to go looking for me and finding me passed out in a shower or something. Oh memories. I remember contemplating going and hiding in the van but decided it was too cold. Damn the weather!

Anyway....I'm marinating some tofu right now in some spicy, bbq-y type stuff I made and then I'm gonna bake it, in hope that I can finagle some sort of lonestar-esque sandwich out of it. I'm super. I'm trying to keep myself occupied or something cause even though my overall mood right now is on the uber upswing my mind just keeps diving randomly into these pits for a few minutes. It's fucking stupid. And annoying. Hmmm......

Do it!

OMG FOLEY_BOT!@#!#!@!
I died.

Saturday, December 16, 2006

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Friday, December 15, 2006

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I made a stencil. Yay! Yes the colors are gayass but theyre all i had.

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Saturday, December 09, 2006

I have a foot alien!

Fo reals, check it:Also, Chris and I went and bought velour track suits last night. Totally inspired by this guy we saw at Wawa on Thanksgiving who was wearing a giant baby blue velour track suit, complete with a giant watch. Unfortunately I couldn't get an obnoxiously colored one cause I had to shop in the kid's department...seriously. Kmart is made for fatties or something.....
I'm gonna put the rest of the pictures on Picasa or something.

I made a two-color stencil design today. I guess it's a start. Also, I hate people who can make me cry....I want to kick them in the teeth. Yep.

Oh and Bas.....stop plotting against me Dutchie!

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Everybody wants a thrill.....

I'm seriously sitting here listening to Journey and crying...laugh at me, fuckers!

I hate this fucking time of year. I hate stupid holidays that hold no meaning for me other than traditions with my friends and family, neither of which are really relevant this year. I hate fucking consumerism, particularly for consumerism's sake. Also I hate this goddamn year. I can't wait for it to be over but a part of me wishes it never happened in the first place.

I hate being this fucking homesick and I hate feeling this way randomly. I hate waking up and not wanting to be awake at all. I hate not having anything familiar at all and having nothing that's actually MINE. Since my laptop is pretty much a lost cause I have um.....my phone, my camera, some clothes, and a few books and dvds and that's it. It's rather silly that I even feel this way since when I was at home I kept saying that I wanted to just give all of my shit away....and I still kind of feel that way, maybe I just miss having the options I had. I really hate feeling like I have no options.

I miss sitting in Charles' room and eating whatever vegetarian thing we decided to cook that night and smoking and drinking and listening to music. I miss driving down the coast in the middle of the night with Raeven, jamming to some ridiculous mix she made of reggaeton and crunk hits or something. I miss waking up early and going to IHOP with Garrett and eating some taters and sitting there all day drinking coffee and having ridiculous conversations and singing along to Savage Garden when it would come on their crappy music station. I totally fucking miss Margarita Mondays. Kimmy told me she doesn't think she can go anymore cause it won't be the same without me...that makes me sort of secretly happy. Ha. I miss retarded karaoke parties. I miss being creative and artistic and having projects and working on things with other people. I miss the pieces I was working on. I miss music a lot. I miss never having to watch TV.

I really miss people who know me...and not feeling like I have to explain myself or feel bad about how I am or who I am.

I guess I just needed to get all of that out. So there's my emo rant for the end of the year or something. Let's just say it came a few weeks early.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

A picture from my phone...

So my mom and sister are driving to Nashville from San Diego because my sister is moving back there. Yesterday they called me from Amarillo, Texas and were on their way to the Cadillac Ranch. I guess when they got there, the gate was welded shut so they couldn't get very close....but they did send this picture to my phone.

Monday, December 04, 2006

Aw.....

Your 'Do You Want the Terrorists to Win' Score: 100%

You are a terrorist-loving, Bush-bashing, "blame America first"-crowd traitor. You are in league with evil-doers who hate our freedoms. By all counts you are a liberal, and as such cleary desire the terrorists to succeed and impose their harsh theocratic restrictions on us all. You are fit to be hung for treason! Luckily George Bush is tapping your internet connection and is now aware of your thought-crime. Have a nice day.... in Guantanamo!

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So does Garth!