I've moved my blog over to my own host and have a new domain. You can now find me at www.mariecerda.com.
Friday, October 29, 2010
I'm working on a redesign for MAGANRORD since we're getting a bunch more attention these days. This awesome journalist, Matt Baume, came out and let Logan and me show him around and talk about birds for his piece about the three main islands in the bay. Check it out. He's also been giving us some love/links in other articles of his on various sites, so it's pretty damn awesome. We've gotta keep the momentum going.
I'm also super busy/stressed trying to plan for school. So much shit needs to be done before I even register for classes and I have all of these meetings I have to go to for course planning and transferring and financial aid and such. I'm just trying to get this shit done, and if that means being mad focused and hectic then so be it.
That's sort of just scratching the surface of all I have going on, but really, who wants to hear me bitch about projects and commitments and such? Let's just say, updates here have been lacking for a reason. However, I hope to have a giant one full of a billion pictures of birds and nature and tropical paradise in a couple of weeks. So stay tuned.
Posted by Marie at 15:06
Saturday, October 16, 2010
1. Red Tailed Hawk
2. Red Shouldered Hawk
3. Brandt's Cormorant
4. Double Crested Cormorant
5. Brown Pelican
6. Western Gull
7. Ring Billed Gull
8. Snowy Egret
9. Great Egret
10. Black Bellied Plover
11. Unknown Species of tiny, tiny Plover
12. Unknown Species of medium-sized Sandpiper
14. American Coot
15. Unknown species of Tern
17. Common Raven
18. Black Crowned Night Heron
20. Tons of little tiny songbirds that I have no idea about
Not bad for hanging out at a coastal pond for half an hour.
Posted by Marie at 09:36
Tuesday, October 05, 2010
(9:12:37 PM) Marie: i all of a sudden became an adult with like...aspirations and shit
(9:12:46 PM) Marie: ambition and motivation and all of that jazz
(9:12:49 PM) Marie: it's fucking weird
(9:12:56 PM) Charles: thats not adult
(9:13:03 PM) Charles: thats white kid bullshit
(9:13:04 PM) Marie: haha
(9:13:11 PM) Marie: no way
(9:13:16 PM) Marie: white kids are jaded little fucks
(9:13:40 PM) Marie: who think that cynicism equals authenticity
(9:13:45 PM) Charles: hey!
(9:13:51 PM) Charles: GETTING CLOSE TO HOME
(9:13:59 PM) Marie: YOU RESEMBLE THAT STATEMENT
(9:13:59 PM) Marie: ha
(9:14:15 PM) Charles: I've been an adult for far to long
(9:14:24 PM) Marie: yeah you have
(9:14:26 PM) Charles: almost as much as I've been rebelling from it
(9:14:30 PM) Marie: i'm not gonna be that kind of adult
(9:14:33 PM) Marie: i don't ever want a car
(9:14:34 PM) Marie: haha
(9:14:44 PM) Charles: the tattooed world traveler kind?
(9:14:47 PM) Marie: i just wanna go run around and study anipals
(9:14:49 PM) Charles: wait, I rule
(9:15:03 PM) Marie: and eventually settle down in a northern european country
(9:15:10 PM) Charles: Finland
(9:15:14 PM) Marie: that would be awesome
(9:15:20 PM) Marie: anywhere with good social services really
(9:15:23 PM) Marie: and awesome art
(9:15:27 PM) Marie: music etc
(9:15:29 PM) Marie: and good nature
(9:15:36 PM) Charles: you're going to end up knocked up by a viking
(9:15:42 PM) Marie: haha i think i'd be ok with that
(9:15:55 PM) Charles: I'm sure
(9:16:46 PM) Marie: I've been talking to a lot of visitors at work and I swear, the happiest ones, the ones that never seemed stressed or like assholes are always from like denmark or finland or sweden or the netherlands
(9:16:57 PM) Marie: even the germans seem pretty chill compared to americans
(9:17:54 PM) Charles: dude
(9:18:00 PM) Charles: I think I have to take a shit
(9:18:05 PM) Charles: because of you
(9:18:09 PM) Marie: exciting
(9:18:10 PM) Charles: you make me shit
(9:18:10 PM) Marie: haha
(9:18:35 PM) Charles: you know I get the trots when hippies are around
(9:18:40 PM) Marie: hahahaha
(9:18:56 PM) Charles: no but really
(9:18:58 PM) Charles: good, go
(9:19:01 PM) Charles: be happy
(9:19:04 PM) Marie: I will
(9:19:05 PM) Charles: fuck a iceman
(9:19:07 PM) Marie: haha
(9:19:10 PM) Charles: it'll be grand
(9:19:11 PM) Marie: it's like a 10 year plan
(9:19:14 PM) Charles: make me the god father
(9:19:20 PM) Marie: dude I will
(9:19:26 PM) Charles: but don't leave that nord to me
(9:19:33 PM) Charles: or I'll make it so fucking metal
(9:19:47 PM) Charles: it'll shit hippies and burn down churches
(9:19:50 PM) Marie: and I'll name my kid Bas in honor of my long lost viking bff
(9:19:54 PM) Charles: yeah
(9:20:31 PM) Marie: haha
(9:20:34 PM) Marie: hilarious
(9:20:42 PM) Marie: you can teach my kid to burn down churches
(9:20:44 PM) Marie: i'm chill with that
(9:20:55 PM) Marie: i've seen like every black metal documentary that exists
(9:20:59 PM) Marie: those guys are pretty cool
(9:24:55 PM) Charles: maries gonna have babies
(9:25:06 PM) Marie: hahaha
(9:25:09 PM) Marie: tiny vikings
(9:25:20 PM) Charles: they'll end up like toki
(9:25:24 PM) Charles: kinda pussy
(9:25:32 PM) Charles: but still cool
(9:25:34 PM) Marie: hahaha
Posted by Marie at 21:24
Sunday, September 12, 2010
but you know, life has been taking place. In ALL SORTS of ways.
The garden is kicking ass, though it's still existing in the front part of my room for the time being. We've had sporadically hot and sunny weather lately, and I don't want my little shade loving seedlings to burn.
As for everything else, let's just say that transition is the word of the day. Or week, month, whatever. So many things seem to be changing right now, which I absolutely welcome. I mean most of the changes are my doing, but I guess the spark that set the change in action was this new feeling of motivation and ambition and drive that I've really never known. I'm through just coasting through life. Don't get me wrong, it was fantastic and fun and necessary and I don't regret any of it, but now it's time to do something else. I'm not really leaving Neverland, I'm just like...moving on to Neverland University or something. I'm actually making plans, big ones even, and really trying to put thought into my life now. It's an interesting ride, for sure.
I'm also really opening myself up to emotions again. Not like they were ever gone, but I'd gotten to a point where I had such a grip on them that I could basically decide what I wanted to feel and what I didn't want to feel. So let's see where letting go gets me. I do this every once in a while, and I remember how much better it is and how much more alive I feel, and then something comes along and hurts me and fucks it all up and I go back to the "robot" so to speak. What I'm getting at here is it's scary AS FUCK. But I'm enjoying the scary, the uncertainty, the intensity, the tiny moments of panic, just as much as I'm enjoying all the better warm fuzzy things. It's very much like the old "shedding skin" cliche. Everything is still raw and sensitive and shocking. Though knowing the way my emotions roll, maybe they always will be. It's all alright. A lifetime's worth of experience in being me knows that it will always be alright.
Posted by Marie at 09:49
Saturday, August 21, 2010
So despite all of my promises of never going back to San Diego, I will be doing just that this coming Wednesday. Sadly someone I was very close to in high school passed away and although he and I were no longer close it's left me in a strange place mentally, as it's also done to many people I love.
It's been a strange past 48 hours. I'm so stuck in my head right now. I feel so amazingly connected to a time in my past that I've done my damndest to sever all connections with. Those years were so important and so formitive but so fucking painful. And now it's all so damn raw and on the surface of every thought I have and every action I make. I'm not that person anymore, I'm not trying to be, but I realize that she still lives inside of me somewhere.
I'm trying to focus on what's good and present and real and alive right now: I have amazing friends both here and there who love me and I love them. There's a guy out there with the same color toenails as me and spending time with him makes me pretty damn happy. I get to spend 4 days with my best friend and do nothing but lie on a beach in the sun and be a little emo and get a sunburn. And strangest of all, being this aware and this connected to my emotions has made me feel alive in a completely remarkable way.
Posted by Marie at 22:29
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Saturday, August 07, 2010
Saute shallots, mushrooms, and peppers in olive oil. Add greens (I used collards, arugula, some other spring baby greens) and edamame. Salt. Add cooked quinoa, I cook mine with beef or mushroom stock to really amp up the umami. Finish with a good white wine vinegar. Trust on this last step. The acid does it. I CRAVE this dish constantly.
Posted by Marie at 15:26
This song takes my breath away. So amazing. So beautiful.
Posted by Marie at 10:09
Friday, August 06, 2010
So I'm growing spearmint and basil, which are the two actual plants in the pictures, as well as mustard greens, collard greens, broccoli rabe, mache, and kale. I also bought seeds to grow sprouts, alfalfa and mung bean.
And now I wait. And try to learn that thing called "patience".
Posted by Marie at 17:20
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
Posted by Marie at 01:23
Monday, August 02, 2010
Sunday, August 01, 2010
This morning has just been all research, research, research. When I finish this coffee I'm gonna take a break and make myself something delicious to eat. Then it's off to work. YAY BUSY LIFE.
Posted by Marie at 09:23