Life

Oh man, things are so surreal right now.
I like my new job though, so I guess that's something. I saw a near old person riot at a show I had to go to for work, when an old lady began yelling at a young, female musician from the mezzanine "TURN IT DOWN! IT'S TOO LOUD!!!!" and then 20 other old people followed suit and began yelling at her. Then they all walked out, or kept complaining through the rest of the show. Hilarious and rude as fuck.

dope. guns. fucking in the streets. revolution.

This song just set me on fire. Take a listen.
Placebo - Spite & Malice (mp3 link)

Revolution, dope, guns, fucking in the streets (x2)
Aces take your time
Queens are left for dead
Jacks can stand in line
And touch themselves instead
Aces take your pity
And keep it warm in bed
Aces take your time

Cut the deck
The queens left for dead
Soft and wet, scarf tied to the bed
Jack is all tragic when he stands alone
Feeling demonic harmonic in a no go zone
You look well suited like you came to win
Lust, spite and malice, your degrees of sin
Cruising for pity and looking pretty as fuck
Ace take your chances
Queen wish you luck

Aces take your time
Draw your final breath
Jacks are feeling fine
They've clubbed themselves to death
Aces take your pity
You sleep with it instead
Aces take your time

You can play your card, I'll hold onto mine
Tied up in the reasons, Ace take your time
Looks turn to lovers, flames into fires
Jack loves his tragedy, Queen her desires
You look well suited like you came to win
Lust, spite and malice, your degrees of sin
Wrap me in your trauma and I may just give you mine
Queen take your chances
Ace take your time

Dope, guns, fucking in the streets (Revolution)
Everything will blow tonight
Either friend or foe, tonight

Cut the deck
The queens left for dead
Soft and wet, scarf tied to the bed
Jack is all tragic when he stands alone
Feeling demonic harmonic in a no go zone
You look well suited like you came to win
Lust, spite and malice, your degrees of sin
Cruising for pity and looking pretty as fuck
Ace take your chances
Queen wish you luck

Dope, guns, fucking in the streets (Revolution)
Everything will blow tonight
Either friend or foe, tonight

More Halloween!

There are now pictures from when we dressed up on the actual holiday and went out to a show to see Brian's band Sanu as well as some other bands they were playing with, and I guess to kinda see Brian himself, who I hadn't seen in like 10 years or something..haha. Too bad we bailed out early, though the show was good.
I was a cracked porcelain doll:

From Halloween 2007

From Halloween 2007

Chris was a demon and made a small child cry:

From Halloween 2007

There are a few other pics in the gallery, go check 'em out.

Yeah I said poop on people, wanna make something of it?

(17:38:45) Marie: that emoscene site makes me want to poop on people
(17:39:29) If it ain't much, it's Dutch!: you're too emo for emoscene
(17:39:29) If it ain't much, it's Dutch!: you're queen emo scene
(17:39:29) If it ain't much, it's Dutch!: \o/
(17:39:43) Marie: dude
(17:39:51) Marie: i am OG artfag
(17:39:58) Marie: i predate emoscene by like10 years
(17:40:02) Marie: all those chicks are like 18
(17:40:07) Marie: if even
(17:40:17) Marie: and too sad to use myspace

Who went to Bates Nut Farm to get pumpkins today?

Oh right.

From Bates Nut Farm

It was me.

Go check out the rest of the pics to see cool anipals and pumpkin patch pics and Chris looking "special"...ha.

Also I've started a Halloween pictures gallery, so far there are pictures of me

From Halloween 2007

in my costume for this Halloween party from last weekend, pictures from

From Halloween 2007

Chris' birthday party, all the Halloween decorations I've made for the apartment, and

From Halloween 2007

pumpkin carving, which is taking place tonight! I will be updating that gallery as the days go by...stay tuned, bitches!

This is what it looked like...

outside of my apartment at 7 am.

From Fire!

I'm up at my mom's house now in case they have to evacuate. I figured they were going to evacuate my neighborhood at some point anyway, and I have the bigger car so I can help her carry stuff if they need it. Also the 15 is shut down all south of here, and also north of here, so I have no idea where they would be evacuated to anyway..haha.

I need a costume!

So I haven't thought of anything yet to be for Halloween because I want to wear my purple wig (my hair is too short and difficult to do anything interesting with for a costume) but I can't think of anything/one with purple hair. I guess I'm not tied to the wig if I can find a cool costume I can do that my hair works with. I like more elaborate makeup, kinda creepy or strange costumes. And I don't want to be a skanky anime or comic book character, kthx. That's about all that comes up when I search for characters with purple hair. Desiree thought of Triana from Venture Bros. which would be cool and funny, but also kind of boring to do and I would feel like I was just some goth chick with purple hair (hello highschool!). Plus I'm not sure most people would realize it's even a costume.
For some reason I'm getting an image of green skin + purple hair, sort of like some campy monster girl or alien chick from OG Star Trek...haha.
ALSO...apparently there's a party tonight with a costume contest and I just found out about it last night so I need something to be tonight as well...dammit.

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I never saw the morning til I stayed up all night...

Having an exchange about San Diego with someone who likes it much more than I do inspired this...
Tom Waits - San Diego Serenade - this version is from a live radio performance in 1975 at KQRS in Minneapolis.

Another...

good song for rainy days, since the sound of water is part of the song.
Empress - All We've Seen

I think I might like this song better

if it wasn't about Janis Joplin...but it's one of my favorites nonetheless.


Leonard Cohen - Chelsea Hotel #2

I remember you well in the Chelsea Hotel,
you were talking so brave and so sweet,
giving me head on the unmade bed,
while the limousines wait in the street.
Those were the reasons and that was New York,
we were running for the money and the flesh.
And that was called love for the workers in song
probably still is for those of them left.
Ah but you got away, didn't you babe,
you just turned your back on the crowd,
you got away, I never once heard you say,
I need you, I don't need you,
I need you, I don't need you
and all of that jiving around.

I remember you well in the Chelsea Hotel
you were famous, your heart was a legend.
You told me again you preferred handsome men
but for me you would make an exception.
And clenching your fist for the ones like us
who are oppressed by the figures of beauty,
you fixed yourself, you said, "Well never mind,
we are ugly but we have the music."

And then you got away, didn't you babe...

I don't mean to suggest that I loved you the best,
I can't keep track of each fallen robin.
I remember you well in the Chelsea Hotel,
that's all, I don't even think of you that often.

Fuck it :)

Today is just gonna be music day...stick around and I'll be sharing all sorts of crap because I've nothing better to do.

The Trapeze Swinger is one of my favorite Iron and Wine songs, and it would still be even if it didn't contain the line
" and please remember me, my misery
and how it lost me all i wanted"

I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat....

I was lying in bed this morning, trying not to be awake, but my mind wasn't having it. At least life is becoming tv and the weather is conforming to my moods....and the Six Feet Under episode "Terror Starts at Home" was in my mind for some reason. I wish I had art school friends to come chill at my place and do random drugs with and such...ha. Oh well, I consoled myself by listening to the song from that episode Transatlanticism by Death Cab for Cutie. It's a wonderful rainy-day song.

Panda and Angel's "Mexico" is another good one. Moody, moody day.

Jem is excitement!

Glamor and glitter.....fashion and fame! Too bad all the pictures turned out like crap...you can't even see the glitter!

Don't walk away...

I almost cried watching the trailer for Control...watching the actual movie would probably make me die. Call me goth, call me an artfag, I don't care. Joy Division will always be one of "those" bands for me, all meaningful and amazing and special.

I kinda felt the same way when "Walk the Line" came out, though the trailer didn't actually make me sad, but I never saw it anyway. I really want to see Control though.

I went to the park the other day....

Fall rules!

Something strange about me...

When I'm lying in bed by myself, trying to sleep, I get stupidly lonely sometimes, (which is weird because generally if there is another body in the bed I feel all cramped and constricted) and then I can't sleep at all, because I have one of those stupid heads that never shuts up. So I just keep thinking about how empty everything feels, and how lonely it is to be in a room by yourself in the dark in such a vulnerable state, etc....
So that's strange, but not very strange (I don't think?)...the way I deal with this is by sleeping with my laptop in the bed, with Pidgin open. Somehow the thought of this open connection to people I know fills a bit of that void where a body would be...it makes no sense, but I never really thought my mind did at all....make sense, that is. I've been doing this laptop thing for about a year now. I mean not every day or anything, sometimes I've actually got the body in the bed, but when I don't....So I'm about to do that. I took some TylenolPM (tpm for short, yo) and I'm just sitting in this dark cave of an apartment, wrapped up in blankets, with my laptop, waiting for this lovely medicated sleep to kick in.
I feel like this is what the rest of my life is going to be, semblances of connection, pieces of plastic and metal keeping me company. At least laptops can't leave you, though they will eventually die. Just like everyone else.

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